My name is Erin. My name is Erin and my plate is full. My cup runneth over is an understatement in my case. I honestly do not even know where to start with my chaos, so just bear with me. I am going to do the best I can to make it all make sense. I am new to blogging, so I am sure we will go through growing pains together. The truth of the matter is that sometimes I feel bad when I want to complain because there are so many people out there that have it way worse than me. What I am coming to realize and accept, though, is that, while my suffering may be small in comparison, it is still my story to tell. I am allowed to feel. I am allowed to have my moments. I do not allow myself to wallow or stay down, but it really can get to the point where you feel stretched beyond capacity. 2019 has been a year full of stretched beyond capacity.
I. AM. SPENT.
Why am I here? I am here to share. I am here to help. I am here to be an example. I am here to vent. I am here to be a resource, a shoulder. I am here to unload my frustration to anybody kind enough to to listen (read). I know, quite possibly, that no one may be reading at all, but sometimes just saying something out loud lifts a huge weight and provides much needed relief. THAT is why I am here.
What do I do? I have been a registered nurse for almost a decade. It is a 2nd career. I was a pharmaceutical sales representative in a former life. I am currently in school for my Master’s Degree in Nursing, which I should be earning in the Winter of 2020. This past Summer 2019, I earned my Bachelor’s degree in Nursing and I will be earning my Associate’s degree in Spanish in December 2019. So, I currently hold a Bachelor’s in Biology, an Associate’s in Nursing, a Bachelor’s in Nursing, and soon to be an Associate’s in Spanish with more degrees on tap. Yea, so I really don’t love school, despite what it appears. HAHA. I am over school; however, I am committed to be in it until I complete my Doctorate degree in Nursing. Oh yeah, I work too. I am a part time PACU nurse and full time caregiver for my husband.
What’s my story? I am married to an amazing man. When you talk about good people….genuine, salt of the earth, good people…he is who you’re talking about. He is a retired combat veteran of the US ARMY after serving over 25 years. He suffers from debilitating PTSD and a host of physical issues that prevent him from living life the same way a lot of us do, but he makes the best out of the hand he was dealt. We have a 4 year old daughter who is the center of my entire world. When I tell you, she is my everything…my goodness, sometimes I just look at her and get overwhelmed by the amount of love I feel. There are other times I look at her and wonder who replaced my sweet angel with the Tazmanian Devil. You get what you get. Haha. I am just trying to figure this mom thing out. So, I started this blog a while back because I wanted to talk about mom life and my locs, thus the name “loctails and momosas.” Life got in the way and I neglected doing anything with blogging. Fastforward to now and we have been dealing with some serious medical issues that have been causing me a great deal of unrest, conflict, and turmoil. I am hopeful that sharing my story will help anyone else out there going through the same or similar. Sometimes it helps to hear and feel you are not alone.